I am tired and overwhelmed and the children are DRIVING ME NUTS!!! I hate saying that. I know I have so many wonderful things to be grateful and happy for and the four little ones (5 counting my husband) are the top five things but still, THEY ARE DRIVNG ME CRAZY!
I feel like I wake up and immediately have to start refereeing, cleaning, cooking, driving, organizing, cleaning (yes AGAIN), entertaining, and that is all before 9am. I have tried getting up earlier, but then they do too and the day is even longer.
What am I going to do when these guys get older and they have even more on their plate? If I can not handle it now, what am I going to do when it gets harder?
I found myself so jealous of my husband who gets to go to work. I know he works very hard and I am not trying to downplay what he does each day BUT he gets to leave, take a deep breath and break, and then come home with a better attitude (and a hot meal waiting for him)..... where is my time? There seems to be no time for me to call a time out and I am quickly getting more and more frustrated with the kids, raising my voice more, when one of my resolutions was to be more patient. How do I be more patient when THEY ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY! Someone once told me that being a mother is like being pecked to death by a bunch of ducklings.... sounds about right but there is no end to the pecking..... PECK PECK PECK PECK PECK PECK...can't they find someone else with some breadcrumbs??????